I feel like I fell off the clean eating wagon months ago, and haven’t been that successful at getting back on track. Here’s what’s real. I was 185 in September, then when I really injured my hamstring (October) I stopped running as much. By November I was back around 195. So, I really considered my lowest weight around 195.
This is dangerous.
10 pounds might not seem like a lot. But it is when you subtract them from the already 12 pounds that you have gained from being sedentary. So are we doing our math? I haven’t gained 12 pounds from this hamstring thing. I have gained like 22. And it sucks. I am angry about it. I hate the decisions I am making.
Here’s what’s also real. I work late shifts, I either get off work at 7, or 10 at night. I SHOULD go right to bed when I get home. However I don’t. I stay up drink a beer, and eat a snack before going to bed. And that beer has turned into 2 beers. If I’m being honest, here goes. I probably consume around 4-600 calories (including the beer) after I get off work. And I have been doing this since October/November. Now are we still doing the math right?
4-600 calories 5 nights a week over the course of 5-6 months equals 22 pounds. I am beginning to see signs of my work shirt buttons gaping. Big fat bad sign of me getting fat.
Do you see why I have not been blogging as much?
Ok and here’s a cute picture of Brassy to take some of the sting away from what I’m saying (this is for me, but I hope it makes you smile too!)
What have we learned today? Eating crap and drinking beer after work makes you gain weight! It’s actually not that hard to say out loud. But I was so embarrassed I was eating wrong, I guess I just felt like if I kept doing it and not saying anything it would be ok.
It’s a twisted way of thinking, right?
I think most people do this. They avoid. Avoid their problems, by continuing to do what’s not best, and not confronting them, or being honest with themselves.
I need to set myself up for success. Especially since I am posting this and I am kinda freaking out about it. But just trying to take it one day at a time.
Here’s the things I would like to accomplish this week.
-drink only 1 cup of coffee a day (eventually weaning myself off of caffeine altogether)
-go straight to bed, when I get home after I work until 10pm. (I have a late shift tonight, so I plan to post tomorrow about that)
-get 2 more 30-60 minute work outs in this week. I have already put in 2 work outs, that would make it 4 for the week.
-blog post daily
sounds doable right?
I have already done some meal planning.
I have dinners for the week. And I feel like I am setting myself up for success.
How’s your diet going?
Have your fallen off the horse/wagon?